messy

such a long time i didnt post any blog here....my life is getting horrible terrible messy now...i dont know waht i suppose to do...everything is mixed together.....i cant really enjoy my holiday...even through my result is getting better from semester to semester...but i stil not happy....i not sure that is what i really want to have now....
im crushing with a guy those days...........................................................
maybe i should not say crushing , is cheating.....
when the first time we met, he told me "yehan, you know, you really cute...i wish to hold your hand when we were watching movie...but you moved away.....i hope.................."blak blak blak....is not important now.....
he siad he wanna to take care of me....cheh....maybe is me to desire to have people love me....i didnt think to much and put all my feelling and love on him..................................
i dont know what he really want................can i shoot CJB on him now?
can i?should i? i dont know......
now.....he told me he need time to think again....and said is me crushing him first.............
WTF!!!!!not me....is you....
i think i should end our relation now....even get you rid from my friend list.....i will even change my insurance agent....i not wish to depend on you again...WTF.....you are the first guy i shoot such words on you....u can see how angry im....